Yesterday, I exploded. My aunt and father were having an argument and I couldn't take it anymore. I screamed at the top of my lungs and shut them both up. I couldn't take it. The fighting had caught up to me. All the fighting of my younger sister with the entirety of my family. It was all too much for me to bear. Every now and then, the fights would be extreme, and though I sat on the sidelines, the pain just built up in me. Every fight was like a stab to the chest. It accumulated more and more and finally I bled out. In a fantastic rageous explosion I forced my pain out to both of them. Afterwards, me and my father left my aunt's. My father was in tears, as was I. I spilled out all the stresses I had to him. At this time he was worse a wreck than myself. He asked me why I never told him. I never told anyone. I lacked the courage to tell anyone, even the people closest to me, which is probably a couple I have known for a long time. I was a coward to not share what had welt up in me. It was like a bad burn that wretched the skin and pained and throbed. I know now, that I will never torment myself as such again. But the criticism from everyone around me, even my best of friends, makes me feel as I am pushed into a small under-sized cage and cannot get out. I felt so alone, so I secluded myself away from everybody for the most part and grew into an unstable emotional wreck. I'm not a durable human being, I am extremely fragile, but people treat you how you come off it seems, and I don't want to look fragile. I have a mind, and I have free will. But because I am so afraid of the people that surround me, I shut myself off and hid away in my own fear. I just know, I can't take the criticism anymore, it brings me to a new level of distress. To be frank, it hasn't been of much constructivity. The path I was on was a path that leads to very bad events. I will not continue to walk down that path. I will create my own path and find the grand design of life. I have found things to be tough these past months. In the process I have gained a friend I never thought likely; my father. I have never seen a man cry in so much pain before yesterday. But my relief has sprung me to think differently. I'd like to get to know the people I have been around for a long time, it is time for my life, like the United States and France, to takes its revolution for the greater future. I love everyone, and I apologize if I have hurt anyone in the process. Thank you all and let us start new. I am Matthew, and its nice to meet you.

It is my revalation of a revolution